John mayer never released this song in any of his records, but i feel like i connect to this song more than any of john’s pieces before. After being in many relationships plus most of it didn’t work out, its hard to find someone else you care about that much and you feel like all the love in you is gone and there is no capacity to feel that again. So you settle for less and be with guys who dont deserve your love. and you want the hurt, just so you feel alive or some feel like you were taking a step back in the direction of love again. 

” I wanna fall, fall asleep
asleep in the arms, the arms of a woman
a woman who doesn’t, doesn’t deserve my love

I wanna lie, lie to myself
myself and someone else
just to feel something, something that hurts me
the hurt makes me feel alive

Gonna make it, like I need her
gonna miss her the moment I meet her
and it’s only gonna get worse from there”